Starting now, I'm going to have text updates on Fridays and image/inspiration/video updates periodically throughout the week.

Wednesday I had to teach my Japanese class how to cook something. I was nervous, because I thought we'd be standing there with everyone watching. Not so much. Turns out, it was just sensei flitting around and watching, while the rest of us did our own preparations and watched if we wanted. I was still nervous though, because I cannot make chocolate chip cookies to save my life. D.J. found this extra chewy recipe on FoodNetwork.com, I believe. The dough ended up runny and the cookies were super dark. I guess some kids liked them. According the Brandon, they were delicious and he proceeded to take two handfuls. But I thought they tasted like ass. Overall, the project went well, except for a few stumbles here and there. Nick and Ryan made Kool-aid and mud pie (oreos, chocolate pudding, and gummy worms). When Nick tried opening the gummy worms, the package flew open and the worms flew everywhere. Ryan picked them up and dropped them in the pie. Then, Ryan couldn't figure out how to open the Kool-aid, so he ripped the side and continuously whipped it against the pitcher side until all the powder was out. It was hilarious. Then, when a group was going, I reached out to put something away and knocked everything off the counter. I tried to grab for it, but I failed hard core. Carly laughed and said she was glad my group was so graceful (D.J. tripped over the mixer cord earlier).

The rest of the week was fine, more work on our papers. And then I heard about Japan. Honestly, I didn't think the earthquake was that bad, not that earthquakes aren't bad, but fuck. I didn't want to see the images at school, because I knew I couldn't handle it. To make matter worse, we found out Shiho, the exchange student from last year, lives in the prefecture that was hit with both the earthquake and tsunami. No one's heard from her yet. At the moment, I've calmed down from earlier (running to the bathroom to stop from crying), but I'm still a bit emotionally unhinged until I hear from Shiho.

And that's how my week went.

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On Saturday, my niece and nephew came over. For the most part, it was really fun. We made cut-out sugar cookies and decorated them. But most of the frosting tasted like licorice. I fucking hate licorice. "o(￣ﾍ￣;)｡ My niece piledrived a ton of cookies, but I didn't really care because she wasn't sleeping in my room. Anyway, my nephew was put to bed, in my room. Whilst watching Velvet Underground, he woke up and wouldn't go back to sleep. From then on, my mom would get him to fall asleep, then he would wake up again. Around 3:40ish, he woke up again so I went downstairs to get him to sleep again. The fucker wouldn't, so I ended up watching him until 6:30 when my dad took over.

Today I went Christmas shopping (again). I ended up getting presents for everyone, but D.J., Nicole, and Taylor still need more presents. I know exactly what to get them, but I don't have enough cash.(。┰ω┰。) Akira has a bunch and I'd still like to get her more. I think it's because she's so easy to shop for. We're pretty much the same person. /Lesigh.

Tomorrow I've got a Christmas party to go to. It started out 4:00-6:00 but has somehow graduated to 6:00-11:00. Should be pretty fun, considering the people going. It's an all girls party, too. I'm hoping Rana will be wearing a Christmas themed russari, but I'm not sure Muslims celebrate Christmas. I'm looking forward too it, though.

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Not done with the layout and editing, obvs., but I'm working on it. I'll probably be off Saturday and Sunday, but I'll see if I can make some time~ Anywho, I still have text to edit, along with gathering smilies and such. I tried to get icons to work, but so far, nothing's coming along. D<

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lately i've been getting really annoyed. some fucker in environmental science won't stop complaining and trying to look cool. one of these days i'm going to attack, and it's not going to be pretty.

there's this girl i'm not friends with anymore (waste of time and space) and i can't even handle listening to her voice because it's high and FUCKING ANNOYING AS FUCK. we were watching that movie in japanese and everytime cici would laugh, she would look over to cici and laugh. retarded, i know. she also got hit my another friend's dad, which left a dent in her car-last year. she made a big deal and told everyone. they made the dad pay. the car still isn't fixed. it's full of bullshit. i can only imagine what they did with the money.

my mother keeps pretending she knows more about things than i do. she's convinced she knows more about japan than i, which she doesn't. i've been studying four years and she's going on what a friend told her, before my freshman year. she also tried to tell me i knew very little of the fashion world and that the entire industry is only about drugs and sex. yeah okay, mother fucker.

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Assuming junior year would be easy was a big mistake. It's not like it's hard work, but the stress and mental factors are HUGE. Having an anxiety disorder fucking sucks. If you don't have one, especially if you don't have GAD, then you won't know how bad it actually is. I can't stop worrying about the littlest of things and it's driving me crazy. ;__;

I have the fucking sculpture project from hell. Our teacher has horrible time management skills and assumes we're all going to be awesome at cutting glass and shit. It's ridiculous. I have a ton of holes and the blue glass breaks at every place. She even told me it was the hardest glass to cut and has messed up a few of my pieces. I wish it was magically done.

I job shadow at salon 218 now. I went in for the first time and it was pretty fun. I'm supposed to go in tomorrow, but I don't really have time. Hopefully next week, 'cause I'm not sure I'll be back until after break. To anyone who wants to get into a certain industry, I suggest job shadowing. You don't have to pay anything, the people are nice, and you learn a lot more. Depending on what the job is, you may even be able to be hands on. I cannot. I heard back from Don Roberts and can start classes next year, but it's over eleven thousand, so I don't think I'll be able to attend.

I've started role playing again. Huzzah. I've got a few forums started again, and I may post links when more people join, aside from two. I'm actually going to see if I could start another one. That, or I'll just write a smutty story involving god-like beings, but not actual gods. <3

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hey guys, i promise there's going to be some updates soon! later today really. i've got more plans for my future to share with you, along with inspiration and other goodies~

guess who got fame monster?

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wednesday to today wasn't awesome.
my friend is starting to really piss me off with the little shit she does and i'm losing interest in her very quickly. D< i need to talk to her about it, but i'm not really in the mood. i'm done with anxiety for a while, 'kay thanks. i was supposed to have a speech thing in english today which never happened. i go on tuesday, as does most of the class. i almost had a heart attack today all thanks to my anxiety. disorders fucking suck.

i made a new layout, as you can see. :D well, i made the image anyway. i didn't feel like making another code, so i found one i really liked and just changed the image and colors, everything else is credited and i don't claim it as my own in any way. O:

oz fest is tomorrow, so it should be fun! that's all for now.

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creative title, i know. but anyway, this is how my week and weekend has been:

thursday: i swear to god my sculpture teacher is on the breaking point. i found out yesterday that her sister had died, but she hadn't really taken off a lot of school when she was in the hospital and the like. i'm almost positive that she needs the time off or she's just going to lose it one day when someone messes up. anywho, i was just turning in my stained glass project. it was pretty shaky, but the weight was a little off, so yeah. as i was putting it in the bin she wanted us to, literally as i was, the side fell off because the small little section finally cracked all the way off. of course, my friends and i were laughing in disbelief, because come on, i was turning the effing thing in! i was just going to turn it in and pretend i didn't do anything, but being the good student i am, i told her.

she comes over, looks at the damage, and rips the ENTIRE SIDE OFF! i almost killed her. she laughed at me and said "looks like you're not turning it in today." and patted me on the back. D< jesus christ. i mean, i had just spent three class periods soddering the fucking thing and she just goes and breaks it. MY GOD. i was so pissed i almost started crying. see, i haven't done this before, because she said our class had it as extra credit (we did stained glass fish last year). i was damn proud. i spent an hour last class trying to find a plug that worked, 'cause half of them weren't working at all, and finally finished it. she hung it in the display. :)

friday & saturday: had to turn in early for an academy is concert on saturday. i really didn't want to go, because it was in a gym with a lot of college bodies and i didn't want to get sick. needless to say, my anxiety was on high alert. BUT, i got to wear my newest outfit, that i had actually made of clothes i owned and not bought, which was pretty awesome. so, i got up early too, because if i slept late, then i'd feel like shit at the concert. all day i was worrying, until my sister's friend came over to go, and i found out i didn't have to go. i was stoked, but felt bad, because i wouldn't get to see tim. D: oh, i took some new images too, but they're on my myspace. i will prolly share them. ah, saturday i got sick. it wasn't good and i'm still sick.

monday: i nearly died of a heart attack. i had to be at school at six to assist at the radio station and my dad didn't get me up until five thirty! everything that could go wrong it. the printer jammed three times from me trying to print and then it wouldn't print. i had to send him the news from the weather station to the fm studio and then he had to read the weather from the computer. O: i felt so bad, 'specially since gorman is always the dj i'm helping out with.

soooo, i'm not the only one who watched the rachel zoe project right? guys, seriously, send me a message or comment or something so we can talk about this. i am still in shock about what people said about her. i mean, i understand there are a lot of people who don't like her, but remember guys, beauty in the eye of the beholder. i myself love her own personal style, but whatev. i still don't see how she can be a druggie. i mean, i've been trying to see it, but it's just not coming along. O: but guys, honestly, don't say shit that doesn't look like it, just because it's fun to nag about people, 'cause it's L-A-M-E. i felt really sorry for rachel when she was at the photoshoot. x0 but hey, not everyone is comfortable, but she did look amazing. need i mention, rachel, that your hair looks totally fab in a low bun? i'd die to have your hair! i mean, mine's naturally curly, but shit, yours is godly~

tuesday: not a lot. japanese was amazing, like always. shiho said she thought something on my facebook profile was cute, but i didn't catch it. abi offered me some candy, but i turned her down and gave her a thumbs up. shiho did it to me, and both of us giggled for a minute or two. there was an earth club meeting and i'm on staff. YAY, exciting, but that's about it for today. check back tomorrow.

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